We, the Youngsters, want to have a peaceful life in our multi-racial country

To the dearly dedicated elderly leaders and elders, who have experience years of living in the world, and gain a lot of wisdom, more than us the Youngsters, here is a message for you :

1) We are fuckingly fed up, we want to live in peace.

2) Stop put pig heads in front of mosque, stop burn church, stop do anything that can fuel up the sensivity of race and religion, you all are grown up anyway.

3) You guys are angry if we cause rebellious acts in school, if we shout at the elders, but why do you guys fight physically and mentally among each other just because we all have different skin colour?

4) We the immatured Youngsters are trying to have fun among us, so please stop your so-called matured fight over the importance of your own race. Fight for MALAYSIAN.

5) No offence, constitution is constitution. A country CANNOT have big amount of national language or national religion. National or not, it should not be a big issue when you can just simply practice your custom whenever and wherever you want. It's you guys that teach us the lesson in the History subject.

6) This is not 1957 where we just about to know each other. This is 2010. So being racist at this period of time, is extremely ridiculous.

7) I have friends from different races, I am glad that I can understand them better. So Youngsters, ignore the stupidity of the Elders and start mingle around.

8) LEADERS PLEASE ACT, THINK AND SPEAK LIKE YOUR AGE.

New Year's Fucking Racist

Celebrating New Year is all about uniting the seperated Malaysian as one. Yet, this fucking Chinese singer, failed to endorse this at his fucking boring show at the Curve on 31st December 2009.

It seems like it's not a big deal, he speaks Chinese language during his whole show (speaking does not mean singing). It seems innocent. It seems pardonable, forgivable and all. But think again, we're independent now, and we have our National Language, or at least international language that generally, everyone understand. The fucking show is meant for Malaysian, who consists of 50% Malay, and others. If you speak ONLY to your race, in the middle of MULTI-RACIAL crowd, you are a racist.

I am not anti-Chinese, if you are my friend, you would know I don't judge people based on their colours. But I hate it when the Malays try to lift up their standard of living (admit it Malays are sucks at economy anyway), the Malays are called racist.

But when Chinese speaks Chinese in a middle of multi-racial crowd (when Chinese language is not the National Language), it is forgivable. When Chinese put a regulation that their employees must be able to speak Chinese Language (and National Language is not necessary), it is considered as to meet the economic drive. And when the Malays put some quota, it is racist.

Again, I dare to say I am not racist. But I am fed up with the situation where the powerful and influential racist Chinese dare to be openly racist.

Academic Competition is so LAME

The freaking inaccurate public examination; PMR has just ended and I could see all the people are proud of their school's ranking. Call me stupid, but I won't be bothered by my school's performance. Because I don't believe in how public examination reflects your intelligence.

That's not just it. This kind of competition has ignore other elements that are important in creating a useful workforce. We just compete, and strive for the examination, and then we are proud of how many A's we have. What a stupid kind of proud, when we have a freaking amount of A's but we have lack of soft skills.

We ignore the soft skill competition. Our mom wants us to get all A's. Our teachers want ys to get all A's. The society wants us to get all A's. But no one want us to be a useful Malaysian that can talk, street smart and independent.

I dreamed about World's Destruction

Me and Asyraf accompanied Wanja to Fitness First this morning, and Wanja brought a paper bag with a green message of saving the environment. Out of sudden, my dream today popped out from my mind.

I dreamed, about how the top people, with their power, is actually exaggerating about the environmental problem, especially about the global warming. They promoted green energy, green this and that, and they gave the world the ultimatum of how the world was going to end if we refuse to become environment-friendly.

But in the dream, I discovered that these people were actually using this agenda so that they can induce customers to purchase environmental-friendly goods such as paper bag and all. When people are afraid, they demand more of the goods, and these people who cheated us, will be getting more and more dollars. Global warming was just a conspiracy. And the politicians exaggerated them to divert our attention from political problem and corruption to environmental problem.

Doctors also created myriad numbers of novel diseases, so that they can sell their medicines, and so that the G8 countries, who can afford more of the medicines, will have more powerful and healthier workforce compared to the other countries. The G8 will dominate the economy, since the developed and underdeveloped nations cannot afford to secure the health of their workforces.

This is just a dream, but I don't know that it can be this thoughtful. LOL

FUIYO.EXTREME NYE!

I am not a fan of those delinquent-wannabes at SMAPK, and frankly, just do not care about them. Just now, I read the discussion board of SMAPK in Facebook about how ashamed they are of those who shuffled horribly and posted the video on Youtube in the hopes of getting rain of attention.

Yes, they shuffled horribly, and it made me laugh. But reading the comments in the discussion made me laugh even more. It is like, what they have done, is against their faith and leading them towards the abyss of sins.

Imagine, one of the comment stated that he/she wanted the seniors to come to the so-called holy land and tarbiyah those people, and another craps, like as shuffling is one of the deadliest sin. One more comment, stated that he/she prayed that these shuffler-wannabe will get hidayah and all. It is nice to pray, but to pray as they are extremely bad and like as their aqidah is destroyed is a little bit extreme.

The video brings shame to my school. I hate the video. I hate shuffle. But to blame these people like as they have done an extreme sin is over-extreme. Please, the point here is, do not think that yourself is pious or good enough to perceive others badly. We do not know who Allah is going to choose as the Eden's occupants. We cannot judge them. And again, who are we to act like we are good enough? Shame on yourself.

p/s : I was not even involved in the video, and again, I hate shuffle.

EIGHTEEN

The day I walked out from SMAPK, was the day I felt relieved the most, as finally, I was released from the seclusion of the conservative school. I left behind painful memories, narrow-minded people and other things that I hate about the school, and that was the best feeling ever. That marked the beginning of the age 18, the best age ever.

I have to admit, SMAPK denied my right to have and to experience a lot of things that are considered as taboo, but undeniably, this unseen hell was also the place where I met angels that guide me, and made me steer my direction away from the hedonistic life I wanted to have. I had only a few friends back then, I was not the most popular student, and I was always alone, but after I went out from there, I began to understand the ultimate definition of freedom.

NS Camp waved to say hello to my life, I thought it was hell, but I met a lot of drug addicts, delinquents and others that taught me about friendship, and these people that the pious people fuck are actually the best teacher of friendship to me. Yes, they are naughty, but at least they did not discriminate. This time was the first time ever I punched and kicked a person until he bled awfully, and I turned into a raged, rebellious person soon after. But the good thing, I learned to keep my head down, and to stand up for myself.

Taylor's University College was the next thing written on my 18's diary. And I am very grateful, that it has no similarity at all compared to SMAPK. This time, I have friends who own cars, and I feel like soaring. I encountered accidents with them, and they were not ordinary accidents. I was admitted to hospital by ambulance during The All American Rejects' concert, and it was the sweetest memory ever. I have done some horrible things, so horrible. But I have no regret at all, because I know, all these bad things that I have done now, are giving me the experience, to teach me about how bad it is. And I consider this as a form of Hidayah, because all the bad things that I have done now forbid me from repeating them, and I am grateful.

I meet true friends, that I have been longing for, who accept my immaturity, and it is the best feeling. Now I know how large the world is, after being released by the trap of fools. I might be called snobby by some, but remember, I was not those person you guys accepted before, so there is no point of me being nice to you guys when I feel at best, except for those who gave me their hands when I was in trouble.

This year, I encountered 4 times near death experience, each right after I had fun. Call me a bad person, and you are stupid. At least, I know, how God loves us, the people. God gave me 4 chances to learn, to have fun, without forgetting who give me the euphoria of life.

I am a free man now. I become a liberal person, but yet still bound to a certain limitation, thanks to the conservative school of SMAPK that taught me to mind my limits. I am enjoying my life. I am happy to act immature. And I have no regrets doing horrible things.

Yes, I am not pious, but...

Perhaps I am not that pious to write this, well some say. But if you are really pious, you would listen to anyone as long as the content is good. Note that.

The problem is with our so-called pious leaders is that they do not listen to those they think is not as pious as them. Egoistic is the perfect adjective for them. That party want to merge, this pious party decline even though, supposedly, pious people would know how bad a division is. And then we have these pious leaders who say, whoever reject to join them will go to hell, which is extremely childish and somehow can ruin your aqidah because only Allah can determine either hell or heaven is your destination. There's more, these pious leaders also pray that this particular leaders (who are in the same religion and race) will be destroyed, which is again, much extreme than the word imbecile. Well, if you are so-called pious, you would at least pray that the so-called corrupted leaders to receive some light from the above to guide their path to the right one. Then, after that prayers, this particular leader declines to ask for apology even though in Islam, it is vital to apologize everyone when we close our eyes to sleep.

I am not pious, but I will not easily fall into the trick of those who appear in white serban or live "modestly". One thing the society fails to judge is; the saying 'Don't judge a book by it's cover' is extremely right.

Before you want to show that you are pious, remember the word "riak".